alis volat propiis,

i hate making posts without photos and i haven’t taken any recently so here is one a friend snapped on top of a roof in brooklyn new york. i look awfully bored but i was mainly exhausted.

anyway, what i wanted to vent about. the less and less i drink the more and more i realize why i want to stop drinking/cut back almost completely. i feel like i have a certain reputation i want to keep. as stupid as that may sound i feel like it’s totally relevant and i think everybody wants to be portrayed a certain way even if they say they don’t care what people think about them. i’m literally disgusted with a lot of the people i’m around with how much they drink. i think it’s extremely unattractive when people get too drunk and lately i’ve felt so unimpressed by basically everybody. i don’t think it’s bad to drink, i just think it says something really negative about you if you get too drunk. and it’s not the type of too drunk that happens to EVERYBODY at some point, it’s the type of too drunk where it becomes who you are and what you do on a regular basis. i can’t help but judge.

i think once i took a step back i could see how stupid the whole thing is. it’s so easy to get sucked into the craziness and want to be apart of the crowd. but personally it’s not me. i don’t want to get too drunk, ever. i don’t want to make a habit of drinking or being a sloppy mess. it’s not me. but i feel like i’m really alone in that aspect. the people i love and i love hanging out with are the exact people i’m talking about. i would never give up the friendships i have now to hang out with people who don’t drink.

so it’s kind of a catch 22. (even though i’m not even entirely sure what that means).

on another note i went shopping for myself yesterday. i haven’t been to a mall since before april when i moved into my loft (couldn’t even afford my rent) and my car broke down (had no way of getting there). it felt REALLY good to be able to go out and spend money on myself. it’s just nice to be able to spoil myself again. i haven’t been able to do that in awhile and it was kind of making me go crazy. i bought some jeans which i was desperately needing and some leather boots which i’ve been obsessively wanting for awhile now. so anyway, that was nice.

work now.

November 2

from this

to this.

just sayin’…

October 29

watching hokus pokus. just carved a pumpkin and made pumpkin seeds. it's the calm before the crazy halloween storm.

ohjoh:

my agenda for this weekend is out of this world. thursday means staying here in mount pleasant, hosting a little get together at the apartment and then heading out to the pub. friday i’m driving to east lansing to meet up with a friend, from there we’re going to kalamazoo. saturday calls for a huge bash back in east lansing. crazy crazy crazy, i am.

central michigan university, western michigan university, michigan state university, i guess college really does have its perks.

haha, more like not having a job to be committed to on the weekend has its perks. :] speaking of which i finally have fridays off so i think i’ll be coming to see you soon.

October 28

America's Safest Cities

TO ALL YOU IGNORANT SUBURBAN MOTHERS WHO THINK YOU HAVE A CLUE.

October 26

hellojewlie:

I now present a series of statements that get better and better as you keep reading:

Ice Cream Truck

Selling Clothes

For $10-15

Made by the Olsen Twins

With all proceeds going to charity

Featuring free cupcakes

AND THE ACTUAL OLSEN TWINS?!

Oh and I got the scoop that it’s going to be 4 blocks from the Anthro offices tomorrow? YOU BETTER BELIEVE I WILL BE THERE. [Too bad the actual Olsens will not. But still!] To quote Rachel Zoe [as I so often do], “I die”.

i’m glad somebody is as psyched about this as i am!!! except for you are in NY and i’m in MI so i’m a little disappointed along with my psychedness. haha. let me know how it all looks! i guess for that price it doesn’t even matter! :P

October 24

the breakfast club

dmongo's

last night some friends and i went to dmongos for some drinks. it’s a detroit history/jazz inspired soul food place that’s only open on fridays and saturdays. i used to work across the street from this place so i know the owner well. it was nice to show my face again around that area.

then we headed to a members only after hours which a friend of mine belongs to and he pulled some strings to bypass the one guest only rule and brought about five of us. so i guess i’m not supposed to talk too much about it (if i’m breaking a rule and somebody who cares sees this i will take it down) but it was basically a dj, the most beautifully fancy loft i have ever step foot in, and a five star chef cooking breakfast. i had the most amazing breakfast and a couple more drinks and then we all went home.

it was a really awesome night to say the least. :]

October 23

late night, orange patchouli.

oscarabstract:

sleep and pay attention to your subconscious. it manifests itself in dreams.

little things are the deep root of what really matters.. whatever the issue may be at rise… the subconscious mind seems to slip. then we all fuck up. confusion with oneself never leads to being successfully happy. it might be better to sit back, observe and analyze what you are doing instead of others all the time. maybe then the time you have won’t be so wasted on simple nothings.

your environment is stronger than your will. don’t let that get the best of you, even if things always happen to be changing.

the phone call i had tonight was a good one. she has it so together.

hmm. i dont know. my mind is all over the place tonight. i’m listening to ray charles on vinyl, ready to sleep. my cat is trying to walk on my record player.. odd. i want to say he misses the loft. i miss it too.

anyways, observation is the key to knowing yourself. you should try it out sometime.

GOODNIGHT.

love these words! so eloquent, i’m impressed! ;]

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ahhh, my bed feels amazing after a long night at work. it feels so good to be making legitimate money again. everything seems to be coming together. i think it will be another month or so before i feel like things are completely on the right track again, but it won’t be too long. i got to go out last night after i took my chemistry exam and that was a lot of fun. i had a terrible hangover today so i slept mostly, and then went to work. i got my work schedule and i don’t ever work fridays. YES. that’s the most exciting news i’ve had in awhile because it’s honestly been months since i’ve gone out on a friday night.

well, i just felt like blabbing a little about things. night.

October 21

this is from the set of red dawn which is being filmed downtown right now. i work at the building on the right. not the one in the foreground but the one right behind it that is lit up. it’s quite the commotion, haha.

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this was a couple days ago after moving and unpacking all my things. i like this photo but i’m not as depressed as i look. i’m actually really happy right now because 1. i LOVE my new job, 2. i am enjoying my new roommates, and 3. i switched from coffee to tea FULL TIME. haha. oh, and i kind of always have bags under my eyes… :/

anway, things are going really well. :D

October 16

i guess there is no such thing as fall.

i move in to my new bedroom tomorrow. :] i’m really excited. now that the cold is here it’s even more frustrating having to take the bus to campus and back. it sucks waiting in the cold. i’m just excited to be close to campus and for school to be a lot more accessible. and to finally have the internet. and to finally have my own room. and to finally live where there are a lot of other students and people my age and things going on.

oh yeah… and i finally decided to admit that i’m a workaholic when i tried to make a doctor’s appointment and realized that i don’t have one single day over the next two months that i don’t have classes all day or am scheduled to work. hmmm.

October 14

i went and saw whip it at the movie theater the other night. it’s starring drew barrymore, ellen page, eve, etc. it’s barrymore’s first production and i love ellen page so i was excited to see it. for her first film…it was good. but overall, it was bland. although, of course page was fantastic and barrymore was wild and crazy. it was really cute, the plot. and it made me really want to get back into lacrosse. in the movie the girls are on a derby team and apparently roller derby is an intense contact sport. i never knew… haha. anyway, i found this photo of barrymore and page in some random magazine (i forget which) and naturally i died over it. ugh, i love them. but yeah… just my thoughts on the movie. i’d wait until it comes out on dvd and rent it.

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fuckyeahfrejabeha and girlswholovegirls both reblogged my photo set of my favorite freja beha moments from the s/s 2010 shows. ahhh, i feel famous. :]

October 13

<3

October 12

i’m getting excited to move in with grace and emily. :] i’m so sick of having to ride the bus to school, and i’m getting anxious to have my own bedroom! i finished packing all my things last night. thankfully i don’t have that much stuff. and i got rid of a lot of pointless things i’ve been holding on to for who knows. i think this weekend i’ll be moving most of my things to my new room. :] i’m excited.