alis volat propiis,

hmmm. i never thought i would feel this way about a new beginning.

i’m not really one to reject change. as a matter of fact i’ve always welcomed it. i love new experiences and things like that. but for some reason i’m finding it really hard to deal with the idea that we are just suddenly moving out of our loft. the decision for us to move was definitely in our best interest, but it kind of happened really suddenly. and then in a matter of a week most of our things were gone. i guess maybe it’s because this was our first place, or maybe it’s because i myself was definitely not considering the idea of moving yet…but whatever it was i am just so surprised that i feel so attached. i know that in the long run it’s not that serious, because i know eventually we would have moved regardless. but sometimes it really sucks rolling with the punches and having to believe that everything happens for a reason.

on the bright side, my new roommates seem really nice, i’ll be living SO close to campus, my rent will be much cheaper, and i’ll be in an area where a lot of students live so i’ll most likely meet a lot of new people and have some really fun times. oh yeah, and when our lease is up in may…dan and i will hopefully be getting a place together. and that’s something i’m definitely looking forward to. :]

so yeah… i’m going to try not to dwell too much on this. i think this loft has been such a blessing and ashley and i really turned it into a place we could call home. i think i’m proud of the fact that it hurts to leave. sometimes life gets confusing, throws some curve balls you weren’t expecting… but it’s important to learn how to adapt to circumstances you didn’t anticipate. if you can’t do that somewhere along the line you’ll get left behind. cheers to moving forward.

our loft is already half empty and it’s making me sad. so i’m out of here for the night. ugh, these past two nights have been really emotional. stupid uterus.

fall is here.

one quarter the way through the fall semester, i’m starting to get confused on some things. i hope i can sort the information out. chemistry is turning into a bitch, i hope it doesn’t fuck me over. about to move out of ashley and i’s loft. she’s moving back home for awhile and i’m moving into an apartment in walking distance from campus with two girls grace and emily, they seem really nice. i start my new job tomorrow serving at 24grille. i hope that goes well, i’ve never served before.

this is all so typical of fall, everything is changing.

i want that sweater!

the northern pacific coast in cali.

so today has been kind of strange… i was supposed to study all day for my chem test but i didn’t get any studying done. instead i sat on the internet and looked up information about teaching abroad and then some information about traveling in europe. i really want to go somewhere new this summer and i’m really excited about all the different choices i might have. the idea of having the power to go somewhere and experience a completely new culture just really excites me. so i’ve been looking into all those things and finding some really interesting stuff…

and then i finally decide to go through all my things to try and find a couple pieces of jewelry i’ve been missing for the past week or two. …and i didn’t find even one of them. :/ i’m so frustrated. they were all personal pieces… two of them were given to me by my grandma, one was given to me by tyler and the other one i just recently purchased at a street fair. it seems so trivial but it sucks when you lose things that are important to you and especially four pieces all of which you have NO IDEA where they could have gone. hmmm.

well i’m off to bed now to try and forget about the losses. i have school and work all week so it will probably be a long one. i hope somewhere along the way i can hunt down some of those pieces and also work on finding a new job. well, good luck to me. :]

just showing off my new ugg boots. :] on my way to work. it’s fucking freezing here at night and lucky me i get to sit in front of a large open door while i take money all night. but the perfect excuse to wear these beauties. i found them at buffalo exchange in san francisco, basically brand new, for only $30. i don’t think i will….EVER be able to beat that deal. haha.

my new rings that i bought for myself in haight ashbury in san francisco. :]

so i really really really want to try and teach english abroad this summer to make some money and go somewhere new. but… i need to be certified and the course you have to take to get certified costs about $1000. yikes. then… i need to apply for and get a passport. and then… i need to come up with money to support myself for the time that i would be there before i receive a paycheck.

hmmm. i’m thinking if i only take three courses next semester i might have enough financial aid leftover to get the certification and a passport. but i’ll end up being kind of behind credit-wise in school…and next year i would have to take a couple extra classes each semester. that would be kind of crazy but i’m sure i could manage.

hmmm. a lot to think about. i guess we will see how things work themselves out.

karamichelle:

hunsonisgroovy:

Map of Every McDonald’s in the Country

“What I find most shocking about this map is how perfectly the McDonald’s locations outline the country’s borders, especially the Canadian border. It’s as if they’ve figured that before you leave the country to go to some heathen otherland, the last thing you need to fortify yourself for your journey is a Big Mac.” — [source]

Michigan looks pretty fucking crowded.

haha. doesn’t really make sense what they are saying though considering you can find a mcdonalds in probably every major city in the world.

her lip injections didn’t look so good that day. ew, why?

i get to meet this cutie tomorrow on the west coast. :] ahhh, i’m so excited!

Kate Moss by Craig McDean