alis volat propiis,

ahhh, my bed feels amazing after a long night at work. it feels so good to be making legitimate money again. everything seems to be coming together. i think it will be another month or so before i feel like things are completely on the right track again, but it won’t be too long. i got to go out last night after i took my chemistry exam and that was a lot of fun. i had a terrible hangover today so i slept mostly, and then went to work. i got my work schedule and i don’t ever work fridays. YES. that’s the most exciting news i’ve had in awhile because it’s honestly been months since i’ve gone out on a friday night.

well, i just felt like blabbing a little about things. night.

this is from the set of red dawn which is being filmed downtown right now. i work at the building on the right. not the one in the foreground but the one right behind it that is lit up. it’s quite the commotion, haha. 

this was a couple days ago after moving and unpacking all my things. i like this photo but i’m not as depressed as i look. i’m actually really happy right now because 1. i LOVE my new job, 2. i am enjoying my new roommates, and 3. i switched from coffee to tea FULL TIME. haha. oh, and i kind of always have bags under my eyes… :/

anway, things are going really well. :D

i guess there is no such thing as fall.

i move in to my new bedroom tomorrow. :] i’m really excited. now that the cold is here it’s even more frustrating having to take the bus to campus and back. it sucks waiting in the cold. i’m just excited to be close to campus and for school to be a lot more accessible. and to finally have the internet. and to finally have my own room. and to finally live where there are a lot of other students and people my age and things going on.

oh yeah… and i finally decided to admit that i’m a workaholic when i tried to make a doctor’s appointment and realized that i don’t have one single day over the next two months that i don’t have classes all day or am scheduled to work. hmmm.

i went and saw whip it at the movie theater the other night. it’s starring drew barrymore, ellen page, eve, etc. it’s barrymore’s first production and i love ellen page so i was excited to see it. for her first film…it was good. but overall, it was bland. although, of course page was fantastic and barrymore was wild and crazy. it was really cute, the plot. and it made me really want to get back into lacrosse. in the movie the girls are on a derby team and apparently roller derby is an intense contact sport. i never knew… haha. anyway, i found this photo of barrymore and page in some random magazine (i forget which) and naturally i died over it. ugh, i love them. but yeah… just my thoughts on the movie. i’d wait until it comes out on dvd and rent it.

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i’m getting excited to move in with grace and emily. :] i’m so sick of having to ride the bus to school, and i’m getting anxious to have my own bedroom! i finished packing all my things last night. thankfully i don’t have that much stuff. and i got rid of a lot of pointless things i’ve been holding on to for who knows. i think this weekend i’ll be moving most of my things to my new room. :] i’m excited.

hmmm. i never thought i would feel this way about a new beginning.

i’m not really one to reject change. as a matter of fact i’ve always welcomed it. i love new experiences and things like that. but for some reason i’m finding it really hard to deal with the idea that we are just suddenly moving out of our loft. the decision for us to move was definitely in our best interest, but it kind of happened really suddenly. and then in a matter of a week most of our things were gone. i guess maybe it’s because this was our first place, or maybe it’s because i myself was definitely not considering the idea of moving yet…but whatever it was i am just so surprised that i feel so attached. i know that in the long run it’s not that serious, because i know eventually we would have moved regardless. but sometimes it really sucks rolling with the punches and having to believe that everything happens for a reason.

on the bright side, my new roommates seem really nice, i’ll be living SO close to campus, my rent will be much cheaper, and i’ll be in an area where a lot of students live so i’ll most likely meet a lot of new people and have some really fun times. oh yeah, and when our lease is up in may…dan and i will hopefully be getting a place together. and that’s something i’m definitely looking forward to. :]

so yeah… i’m going to try not to dwell too much on this. i think this loft has been such a blessing and ashley and i really turned it into a place we could call home. i think i’m proud of the fact that it hurts to leave. sometimes life gets confusing, throws some curve balls you weren’t expecting… but it’s important to learn how to adapt to circumstances you didn’t anticipate. if you can’t do that somewhere along the line you’ll get left behind. cheers to moving forward.

our loft is already half empty and it’s making me sad. so i’m out of here for the night. ugh, these past two nights have been really emotional. stupid uterus.

fall is here.

one quarter the way through the fall semester, i’m starting to get confused on some things. i hope i can sort the information out. chemistry is turning into a bitch, i hope it doesn’t fuck me over. about to move out of ashley and i’s loft. she’s moving back home for awhile and i’m moving into an apartment in walking distance from campus with two girls grace and emily, they seem really nice. i start my new job tomorrow serving at 24grille. i hope that goes well, i’ve never served before.

this is all so typical of fall, everything is changing.

i want that sweater!